Saturday, May 31, 2008, 5:31 AM
Haven't blogged in such a long time.Recently all the happenings around me have really changed me. I feel like as if i can't do it anymore. All that expectation. Sometimes i feel like asking myself,who am i? Everyone expects me to do something at a specific time.How do they see me as predictable while i myself can't know me?I can't believe i found it hard just describing myself with 3 words in the testimonial thingy. It made me realise how much i didn't know myself.i don't see any reason to smile anymore.It feels odd when you get woken up to realise how you hate yourself so much or even the world around you.You find yourself asking,"Where did you go?".Maybe it was all an act to run from reality afterall.But when reality hits you hard on your head,you realise that the grass was never greener on this side, if there was any to begin with. It's like standing on barren land and waiting for crops to grow.Waiting.Waiting.Waiting.
I don't see myself laughing much nowadays. Maybe i was never happy to begin with.Everyday, i wake up to tell myself,"Hey,Wake up.Just remember that you suck ok?Or at least most of the people will tell you, one way or another."It's come to the point where i'm getting super paranoid about what people think of me.Now, I'm so scared that if i hear another comment about me,I might just lose it.
I can say how much i don't care about how people view me, but the truth is,I do.And just by this fact i can tell that nobody knows me well enough to stop criticizing me.Their excuse:I'm straightforward.I'm just used to doing so.Well,Wake up. Cause i've been there and done that.At the end of the day, the predator will turn prey. And it'll haunt you into realising what a piece of shit you are.
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Saturday, May 31, 2008, 5:31 AM
Haven't blogged in such a long time.Recently all the happenings around me have really changed me. I feel like as if i can't do it anymore. All that expectation. Sometimes i feel like asking myself,who am i? Everyone expects me to do something at a specific time.How do they see me as predictable while i myself can't know me?I can't believe i found it hard just describing myself with 3 words in the testimonial thingy. It made me realise how much i didn't know myself.i don't see any reason to smile anymore.It feels odd when you get woken up to realise how you hate yourself so much or even the world around you.You find yourself asking,"Where did you go?".Maybe it was all an act to run from reality afterall.But when reality hits you hard on your head,you realise that the grass was never greener on this side, if there was any to begin with. It's like standing on barren land and waiting for crops to grow.Waiting.Waiting.Waiting.
I don't see myself laughing much nowadays. Maybe i was never happy to begin with.Everyday, i wake up to tell myself,"Hey,Wake up.Just remember that you suck ok?Or at least most of the people will tell you, one way or another."It's come to the point where i'm getting super paranoid about what people think of me.Now, I'm so scared that if i hear another comment about me,I might just lose it.
I can say how much i don't care about how people view me, but the truth is,I do.And just by this fact i can tell that nobody knows me well enough to stop criticizing me.Their excuse:I'm straightforward.I'm just used to doing so.Well,Wake up. Cause i've been there and done that.At the end of the day, the predator will turn prey. And it'll haunt you into realising what a piece of shit you are.
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